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Lately, I have been wanting/wondering to join the Philippine National Police. But I fear that being gay would make it a lot harder for me. I see myself as weak. I might even be discriminated one way or another. Plus, at the age of 30 I might be over aged to even qualify?
I wonder if I can surpass the rigorous screening and training to become a police officer. I’m a shy and timid person and a bit of a cowardice at times, so I thought joining the police force would transform me into a better person. Maybe, I could learn courage and independence through them? Maybe, it would awaken the man that is currently comatose within me?
Maybe, I would feel proud of myself if I become a cop and be of service to my country? Maybe, I would feel stronger, bolder to face the trials of everyday life?
This is me….for me it is always “maybe”. >_<
Dear Ms. Gigi Chao,
By now you must be having thousands of e-mails, online messages and wedding proposals, but I’m hoping this would reach you in time. This is crazy but I will say it anyway.
Here’s my proposal:
You are gay; I am gay. We’re both gay. I am younger by 3 years. Let’s get married.
With the $65M marriage bounty that your father offered it will be impossible to find the right man who will love you for who you are. You will never know whether it’s love or just plain greed.
In my case, it would be the latter. But not entirely…I think.
If you marry me I promise to only keep $5M and give it to my parents. I suppose it will be enough to make life easier for them. And also I think that would be sufficient enough to further advance us in our Real Estate brokerage business, and also to send me to Medical school in the future and become a doctor ( to serve in the military or public hospital ). And maybe this can start me going… to make me do something worthwhile in my life. To start being independent and productive.
I have to admit, for me, money gives me confidence. And when we lost it, it also took away my self worth. I feel weak and vulnerable.
The remaining $60M —I promise to let it go without any hesitation and have you use it for your charity work.
I cannot force you to love me because we are both the same. We like the same sex.
I will let you live your life the way you want it to be…with your lover. I will not oppose it. As for me, if the right man comes then I hope you’ll do the same for me. But if you do not agree, then I can assure you that I will be forever loyal to you (but just let me have my frequent dose of gay porn—then I can live in peace ^_^)
If Mr. Cecil Chao Sze-tsung would want a grand child from the both of us—then I guess we can figure out a way to deal with it. There is always the artificial insemination or we can have another woman carry and give birth to our children.
I guess it will be a win-win situation for all of us. Your dad will be happy, my parents will be happy, you and your lover can still have your ideal life and be happy and I will be contented knowing that my parents will have an easier life ahead, and you charity recipients will also be happy.
If you are worried that I might ask more from your side then I am willing to sign an agreement.
I cannot lie to your father so I guess you can ask/tell him about this…
I feel stupid writing this. It’s like I’m a crazy and obsessed stalker. But this is all I can do for now. Sit in front of the computer and be an unproductive citizen. I guess I have not found my leverage in life to start me going…I hope one day it comes.
HomoGuy from the Philippines.
Lonely as ever….